the story of ngiew kar chun ha yuen leng

Today,

Sudden ate a bomb and i still don't know what should i do is the best...

Well, life is simple, keep on going...

我最后的愿望。。。

就是和她拥有这张合照。。。

当完成了这张照片的时候。。。

我的心情，

兴奋不已。

可是，人事已非，

往事，只能会味。。。

Since the day,

It was a totally new life under going... well.. it is not my call to said i want then i get it,

People evaluated me until that level, that's it.

I was wishing and thinking how could i make that mistake, even if i tried hard,

Sometimes, somewhere, faith is like tat.....

Goodbye B.A.T.... u will regret not getting one of the best talent in town...

昨天，

使我人生中，最长的一天。

在接到了电话的那一瞬间，我的心脏，仿佛停止了心跳，

是的，我失败了。

我很冷静地听着

Today... is a bad & sad day...

I receive her mail... saying that how irritating i am for what i've done... she even dont want to be my friend at all... i know the result but never really though of that will taste so hard.. or i take it too hard?

Well, since her statement this morning, i feel that the "ghost" inside my heart has gone... it like signalling all the love and miss towards her just blowed away by wind... maybe i am the one who want to keep it... she already long time let it go even before she decided to break with me...

I am stuborn... i admit tat... but WHY??? Maybe memories are the most beautiful things in life, but once u taking it out to share, to talk or even to rethink about it... it feel pain, sad and hard for the other part to accept it... I feel my memories are precious to me... but she doest not feel so...

Is time to move on, is time to go, away from the sadness, feel the glory of sun... and towards the future.... I have to let it go...

不要因為也許會改變，就不肯說那句美麗的誓言；
不要因為也許會分離，就不敢求一次傾心的相遇.

不要因为改变，就忘了那句美丽的誓言。
不要因为分离，就忘了那次倾心的相遇。

I went to the place 2 days after 7/5/08....

So coincidence that i went there, without notice, i was walking my way there and have a puff...
Is like "time machine" where suddenly all things, human walking become slow, water flow stops, sound so peace and quiet... and i saw that scene again and again... without notice, tears drops so big from the deep of my heart over my face, swallowed.. and ate the pain...

I saw her! Sitting just opposite me... we are talking like old friends, like nothing happen and like nothing big deal... pretending cool... pretending calm and pretending i am alright... that's me...when we talked about past, the eyes of her turned red... and i know she is trying to hold it.. and either myself also trying to control... we both know the faith ends for us... and found no way to turn back the time... Loving her is the biggest happinest and sadness i have in my life... is like another sad ending movie with no where to go, no place to run and nothing to hide...

i admit till today i still think of her... in some sense, i still love her... even how far she has been into now.. no matter how long we never contacted... i still miss her... from the deep of my heart... i still love her...

suddenly... something passed by my face and awakes me... is tears... so heavy and pain...