While We were good frens~!

well, feeling so sad when looking to the topic.... she is my only one.. as fren and as my lao po chai... even human memory cant take so many thing on head... but... i cant forget...

we used to have chat through phone... ICQ (while at tat time... u know.. ) and we moved to second stage... we meet up more at midnight for mamak or for some crazy stuff... we can suddenly on the phone feel boring then we went to KL next minute~! IMPOSSIBLE??!! nop.. is POSSIBLE OH~! we did it for quit number of times... i cant figure it out but i know tats some crazy stuff we always do.. i enjoy tat way, but i know for tat time, i only can be her best+close+normal... fren. i nvr though of going further even i feel it in my heart, as i know, my fear towards stepping one more step, she will ran away from me, haha, i rather enjoy the time i be her frens... can say more than friendship le.

i was in trouble with my study during my first year, lucky she was my senior, some of the text book given by her, with notes, and guidance on how to tackle the subjects. Then, i went to study over at her house too, not during afternoon, but is during midnite`! haha, dont think too much, i really went there to study as my housemate making noise and i hardly study over there. I still remember one time, i was too tired as i went for club activity tat nite but i still went to her house and study. i felt asleep on her room floor~! she got kick me in the end as she wanted me to continue study loL~! u dont think she treat me nice, be frank... she is very fierce~! during exam week was my busiet days as i need to go library and her house regularly seeking for help (haha... i always sleep in class one... ) sometime i stay at home but at the right time, i will call her up to cheer her for continue to study... even though she is good in study, but she is very lazy~! The most amazing part is tat she can watch drama while studying~! for me, i sure cannot...

After tiring study, i will go to her house for some chit chat to release pressure and she did entertain me lol, i also wonder why i like to find her.. mayb.. tis call faith gua~! I still remember we r on a chat topic about massagge, i say i learn b4 and she requested for me to massage her~! haha, she though it is only a joke but the next minute i was there and ready to help her le, ops... tis part... pls... dont think too much, it was only massage her head and shoulder only lol~!

Our friendship move to more weired situation, as we exchange car to use sometime, i help her wash everyweek and even polish it~! my fren start wonder.. who the hell is this gal? i am still keeping my secret and jus dont know why, doing everything for her i will feel happy in the end.. i just dont know why...

~The First Date~

Do u agree or not, for the first date, it is very important to give ur partner a good impression to increase the possibility of the next date... so do i~! to prepare for this date.. i was busy planning on it but the best part is not about how was the programs at that nite.. is about how i should start to ask her out~!

It was my first try to ask her out for a dinner or movie or wat after several weeks i first met her, it took me time to plan for my strategy and also all the nite neccesary event b4 i dare to ask her out~ yes~! at last, she say ok to watch a movie with me and oh gosh... i.. regreted as... that show really scare the shit out from me, it was the "final destination2" i almost showed to her how useless i am in front of this kind of movie.. >_<"'... can say just a normal nite that we through together... movie... dinner ... then yum cha... until both of us feel boring... like usual.. we chit-chating and suddenly come across of going to KL -> Small Genting. It is kind of ridiculous for people to sudden decide and go, but thats the way i live with her, as this is the style of she + me~! the nite started while we reach KL and for whatever reason... i enjoy the moment with her, i always know and understand the concept of enjoy the journey, but not the destiny~! I feel happy and excited while i get along with her, it was my first date with her, we almost went crazy as i almost wanted to drive up to Ipoh for chicken rice ha!

that nite maybe for people... is just another normal nite, but for me... tat was my first date with her.. i found tat my heart start beeping fast whenever i talk to her or look into her eyes... i cant justify what is tat feelings.. until...

call or not call?

this question make me feel so farn over the nite after the event.... i look like panda at tat morning and went for class.... hoping to c her also but nowhere at campus... (disappointing...)

"msg her 1st and c wats her reaction la... " tat was what in my mind... as wat i expected... she dont know who am i~!?!?!? shit.... down for few days b4 i sent her the second msg... it was so shame tat i talk to her so much at tat nite... but... result was so diappointed...BUT, is ok, the msg she replied motivates me to try harder =p

after playing mouse n cats through sms, the game continues through phone call, it was so expensive for the first month until i realize tat she also got local phone~!!! *(&*^&^$%%^$*%^) the relationships moved from normal frenz to chit-chatting kaki during midnite, hehe, my record with her on the phone was from nite 10pm till morning 9am~! wow~! it was cool huh? I also wonder why i got so many stuff+things to chit chat with her, but, not only for entertainment, as she was my senior, she did give me alot of clue on study also~!

Almost everyday after the first msg, we got contact through phone or sms each other, we know each other time schedule well and it actually.... we used to listen each other voice and did care for each other feelings.... i know exactly wat time can and should call her, then if i did rang her phone, she will did the samething some time, but normally just sending me a sms only lu~ i did enjoy tat kind of feeling at tat time, as when i feel lonely and boring at home, i always got her to accompany me~! i still remember the second phone rang to her i start to call her Lao Po Chai le~! haha! she was trying to stop me from doing so but, no choice, i just too stubborn until she also used for that name le~!

we can talk anything, any shits over the phone, some time she complaint to me what had happen in class and i cheer her up, i never feel down while chatting with her, as listening to her voice making me feel fresh everyday~!

continued......

The First Meeting

It was my first campus activity since i joined MMU with all my new met classmate. It was so last minute decision to join this activity, haha, i was almost put "aeroplane" as very tired tat day. I nvr know it was a so wonderfull nite for me as everything started at tat nite....

I was on my way to the activity place with my fren, i saw a not so beautiful lady and fierce looking (it was black... ) lady sitting in front of the library, i was not sure why my eyes cant get away from her... wat i know is tat i wanted to know her.... even my fren suspect, is it i'm nut? i wonder why also.... Like usual, the activity briefing was so boring till zzzz.... but in a sudden... i found tat gal i saw... at tat moment, my eyes was not in my control and heart beat start to increase in a sudden... hard to describe it out but i know tat my feel went somewhere wrong...

The first word she from her mouth to me is "ma dee" as i kacau her by the time she leading a team to my station, the game was playing with some stupid water gun and i used the extra to shot her~! haha~! she was so annoying with my move but she surrendered after several try on getting conter attack to me hehe... i followed her in every game and section tat nite, without her notice, i admit tat i start to pay attention to her, her move, her smile and scream everything~! i was forgot wat my intention tat time, but wat i know, i wanted to know about her more and more eveytime i see her....

Soon, the activity ended successfully and i saw her once again at clc concorse... it was the first time i make myself brave enough to exchange phone number with her.... (it was after my fren motivates me also la... ) cool~! i got her num after she exchanged with some of the other committee.... :c anyway... it was the first meeting with her tat i cant forgot in my life... forever....

What is love?

for me... i failed twice.. y i failed? can be true is the first one... i nvr take it serious.. and i am regret for it.. but.. things change so fast tat i cant accept it.. so i nvr trust love so called mee-magee love some more.. instant one.. u cant understand even single thing about her.. then u wanna to start a relationship?? ridiculous...

finally... i found a place tat can post my story.. is wat i written for the past one year.. does not mean to hurt any party over here but i just wanna write it out to lessen my mindset.. like i say.. i am tired..

男人的爱一生只有一次,
每一个男人都是这样，他可以对每个女人说“我爱你”，但他一辈子只会爱一个女人，只有一个。女人需要的是一个关怀她，爱她，可以让她依靠，保护她一辈子的人，当她遇到一个男人时，爱的死去活来，山盟海誓。然后因为种种原因的分开，她不会再记得他，或者说不会记得那么深刻。因为当她遇到一个更好的男人时，她会拿两个人来比较，她会觉得遇到更好的是她的幸运。

但男人不是这样，
当他爱上一个女人，真真正正的爱，他不会再爱上任何一个人。当这段感情失败后，他会把这段记忆放在心里，把这个女人放在心底。原来一个男人可以把很多女人放在心里，但一辈子只有一个女人可以在他心底。无论他以后会再相处再多的女人，他都会清楚的知道，自己最爱的是谁。无论以后他遇到的女人多么优秀，他也不会改变。因为他心底的女人是他的支柱，他不会用她和任何一个人相比，他认为这种比较是愚蠢的，他一辈子只会爱她一个。放在心底的女人，永远的伤痕。

男人都是爱面子的，
也许他平时会活的很潇洒，但在一个人孤独的时候，他会放下所有的尊严，放声痛哭，思念唯一的她。　　

男人的爱一辈子只会付出一次