I went to the place 2 days after 7/5/08....

So coincidence that i went there, without notice, i was walking my way there and have a puff...
Is like "time machine" where suddenly all things, human walking become slow, water flow stops, sound so peace and quiet... and i saw that scene again and again... without notice, tears drops so big from the deep of my heart over my face, swallowed.. and ate the pain...

I saw her! Sitting just opposite me... we are talking like old friends, like nothing happen and like nothing big deal... pretending cool... pretending calm and pretending i am alright... that's me...when we talked about past, the eyes of her turned red... and i know she is trying to hold it.. and either myself also trying to control... we both know the faith ends for us... and found no way to turn back the time... Loving her is the biggest happinest and sadness i have in my life... is like another sad ending movie with no where to go, no place to run and nothing to hide...

i admit till today i still think of her... in some sense, i still love her... even how far she has been into now.. no matter how long we never contacted... i still miss her... from the deep of my heart... i still love her...

suddenly... something passed by my face and awakes me... is tears... so heavy and pain...